I've done it again... and I don't know how.

I know you're reading this Mel. Gloat. Go ahead. You won. I give up. This is futile. Another person has been driven away from me... or left... you know, I really don'k know anymore. I used to believe i was a good person... I used to believe many things.

I can't anymore. Too many people have been driven away because of me. Too many words people say without meaning, so that when the few pwoplw come into your life, those few who say words that matter, they get drowned out in the air and babble of the concentric circles of bullshit that constantly passed around. I hate being caught up in these wheels of concentric bullshit because it makes me feel crazy. Every time someone goes away and I find out it's something that I done, or was supposed to have done, and it's another layer of this wheel of concentric bulllshut, I get angry and loose faith. It hurts to have to second-guess all of your friends because it could just be another wheel of concentric bullshit that your being handed from someone.

The wheel's go round, and they make a achient grinding sound? More like the slishing of shit.

And every time I try to help and be a good person I just get caught up in another wheel of concentric bullshit because that's all that ever seems to go round, and it passes from person to person and every time I get caught up in it I'm just supposed to ignore the bullshit. I don't know whwat's real and what's anthoer wheel. What is true and what is fale... why won't someone just tell me... please?

Make all the stupid people go away. Just save me from the stupid people.